Tuesday, November 1, 2016

What Can I Say???

I really don't know how to start this post.  I know I've not been posting and if you follow me, you know that as well.  I've always tried to be open and honest with my followers and you know by the title of my blog that sometimes I do a little rambling.  Well I think this is going to be one of those kinds of posts.  The last few months I've only kept up with the monthly blog hop and quite frankly that isn't the kind of blogger I want to be.  I want to be inspiring others every day.  I'm going to get honest here and please don't unfollow me for doing so.  First off let me say that I've never been 53 before and I've never had to deal with many of the things that it can bring at this stage of life....mainly menopause.  I think it's one of the worse stages of life.  My body or my mind haven't coped real well with it.  Then you add Fibromyalgia into the mix and you have a mess.  These are the words of my doctor.  I've been struggling physically and that in turn messes with me mentally.  I know what you are going to say and you are absolutely right, there could be much worse things in life than what I'm dealing with and I live with that guilt everyday.  When you are in constant pain it changes who you feel like you are.  Fibro is awful and I wouldn't wish it on anyone.  The last few months have been constant flare ups and trying to manage the pain.  It's embarrassing when you have to pick up your prescription direct from the doctor and take it to the pharmacy that you have told them you would take it to because what you take for pain is considered a narcotic and needs to be handled in such a way because so many people abuse them.  I hate taking them, but I have no choice.  I can't function with the pain.  Even as I write this I feel embarrassed by it all.  I'm not a junkie and I don't take too many pills.  Some days I try to not take the full dosage that I'm prescribed and at the end of the day I pay for it.  I wish things were different, but they aren't.  I've asked God for healing, but yet that doesn't seem to be in His plan for me and I'm trying to accept that.  I'm no good to Him or anyone else that cares about me if I focus on that.  I want to be who I used to be and some days I fake it pretty good although my family may not say that.  LOL!. 

I said all that to say that I'm going to try and give it a good try and post every day.  I need to post, I need to get into a routine of at least doing the things I love.  Right now I'm just doing enough to get me through the day or sometimes the next hour.  I'm so thankful for my many friends and family who support me through the good, the bad and the very ugly.  The very ugly, unfortunately ends up being with my hubby, who happens to be amazing.  I don't know what I would do without him and I hope I never have to find out.  He is my rock and the love of my life.   

So today starts something that I've done for several years now.  I post on Facebook each day something that I'm thankful for and I will share it here as well.  This is my post for today.  I just copied and pasted it here.

It's officially November 1, 2016 and thus starts my 30 days of thankful posts. I'm not going to let this election take my focus away of what is really important. Not they we shouldn't be thankful year round, but I like the idea of making the effort to post each day of November something I'm thankful for. Big, little, it doesn't matter...just be thankful. If you feel so inclined I challenge you to do the same. Use the hashtag #thankfulness2016 if you'd like to join me. It will be fun to see what we are thankful for in our lives and a great way to get to know each other better. So who's with me?
I'm thankful that I have a God who loves me and died for me to pay the penalty for my sins. Life isn't always easy or perfect, but I know His love endures forever. What a great assurance and one of the most important things I'm thankful for today.
1 Chronicles 16:34
Oh give thanks to the Lord, for he is good;
for his steadfast love endures forever!

I do have so much to be thankful for and I'm going to do my best to make that a priority.  I hope you will join me and do the same.  It's much more fun to do things with friends.

Now not to leave you without a project I'm going to share a card I made sometime ago, but recently came across it today.

I hope i haven't shared this before here, but please forgive me if it's a repeat.  I went back and couldn't find it, so I hope it's new.  I used the Flourishing Phrases Bundle to make this card.  I love the words in the stamp set and the dies make it a breeze to make flowers.

One thing before I close there is an awesome special taking place this month.  Here is a link to the specials in my SU store.   NOVEMBER SPECIAL  I'm hoping this works.  SU has changed how they are sharing flyers so I'm trying to see what will work.  If the above link works for you, could yo let me know please?  Thanks so much!



Carin said...

It worked! Like that new see too! Praying for you, Na! ❤

Mary Gregor said...

I love reading your blogs. Keep it up. Sending Prayers and Gentle hugs to you.


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